Night diary
Noćni dnevnik / Night diary Noćni dnevnik je beležnica bolnih iskustava, koja se sastoji od serije fotografija. Proteklih godina se susrećem sa bolešću nekih organa. Te promene su mi donele nove telesne doživljaje koje su me naterale da telo osećam drugačije. Sva teskoba se spusti u noge koje često bivaju jako otečene, i bol dobija na snazi kada padne noć, kada se telo smiri i pokuša da se odmori. Tada u meni nastaje novo buđenje i ne preostaje mi ništa (pored medicinske terapije) nego da se koncentrišem i beležim svaki momenat. Ta potpuno nova iskustva, koja beležim fotoaparatom praveći eksperimentalne fotografije, su trenuci kada neprestano upoznajem svoje granice. Propitivanje, osećanje krivice, stanje panike, potreba za fizičkim i mentalnim begom je u tim trenucima dosta pojačana. Iznova se doživljava jedan proces koji sa sobom nosi veliki talas umora, koji usporava sve aktivnosti svakodnevnice. Stvaralaštvo iz iskustva bola je već utemeljeno u istoriji umetnosti i savremenom stvaralaštvu i zbog toga ponekad imam utisak da se nalazim u začaranom krugu gde lično postaje opšte. Refleksije spoljašnjeg sveta na unutrašnji su neminovne, samo je pitanje koliko duboko mogu da odu i kako se odražavaju na ličnost. Veći deo fotografija se može videti na sledećem linku: https://sanjasolunac.com/night-diary/ The night diary is a notebook of painful experiences, which consists of a series of photographs. In recent years, I have encountered a disease of some organs. Those changes brought me new physical experiences that made me feel different. All the anxiety goes down to the legs, which are often very swollen, and the pain becomes stronger when night falls, when the body calms down and tries to rest. Then a new awakening occurs in me and I have nothing left (besides medical therapy) but to concentrate and record every moment. These completely new experiences, which I record with a camera while taking experimental photos, are the moments when I am constantly getting to know my limits. The questioning, the feeling of guilt, the state of panic, the need for physical and mental escape is quite intensified in those moments. One process is experienced again, which brings with it a big wave of fatigue, which slows down all the activities of everyday life. Creativity from the experience of pain is already grounded in the history of art and contemporary creativity, and because of that, sometimes I have the impression that I am in a vicious circle where the personal becomes general. Reflections of the outside world on the inside are inevitable, the only question is how deep they can go and how they reflect on the person. Most of the photos can be seen at the following link: https://sanjasolunac.com/night-diary/

Graorasto
Graorasto / Graorasto (Shade of a mixture of gray and brown) Radeći kao vizuelna dizajnerka, jednom prilikom me je pozvao naručilac ilustracije, i pitao da li može boja pozadine da bude graorasta. Termin mi jeste bio poznat, ali nisam bila sigurna koja je to boja. Tog dana sam stavila story objavu na svom instagram profilu sa pitanjem koja je to boja. Ta story objava je bila moj prvi digitalni ready-made. Interaktivni ready-made, jer sam od ljudi sa kojima sam bila povezana preko te mreže dobijala odgovore. Odgovori su imali takav spektar sličnosti, različitosti i duhovitosti koja je imala bukvalno i metaforičko značenje – poput: ,,ta boja je kao miš siva; grao kao pasulj, sivkasto braonkasta; golub plava, ali vuče na sivo; sivkasto kao mladi pasulj; peskasto sivkasta; kao jarebičasta; malo kestenjasta, ali da je pastelno siva; najobičnija braon; moj deda je imao petla, bio je graorast, čak ga je i Graor zvao, znači šaren je onako sivkasto-belkasto, ali ima malo braonkasto crvenkaste.” Ova epistemologija reči graorasto me je podstakla da nastane jedan animirani rad koji se bavi traženjem te boje. Animacija je nastala u programskom okruženju za kreativno kodiranje, kao novog načina vizuelnog izražavanja u mojoj radnoj praksi. Potraga za bojom koju svi vide, osećaju i izgovaraju drugačije, je potreba za stalnim kretanjem i novim saznanjima. Rad Graorasto je spoj novonastale animacije i Instagram story objave, prezentovan u videu podeljenog ekrana (split screen). Postavljena je jasna granica između videa, ali je prisutna povezanost na nivou asocijativnosti. Video nema zvuk, jer potreba rada je da se aktivira samo čulo vida. Rad se može videti na sledećem linku: vimeo.com/546415133 Working as a visual designer, on one occasion I was called by the client of the illustration, and asked if the background color could be graorasto (grayish brownish). I did know the term, but I wasn't sure what color it was. That day I posted a story on my instagram profile asking what color it was. This story post was my first digital ready-made. Interactive ready-made, because I got answers from people I was connected to through that network. The answers had such a spectrum of similarities, differences and wit that it had a literal and metaphorical meaning - like: “that color is like a mouse gray; brown like beans, grayish brown; pigeon blue, but resembles gray; grayish as unripe beans; sandy grayish; as partridge; slightly chestnut, but that it is pastel gray; the most common brown; my grandfather had a rooster, he was grayish brownish, he even called him Graor, so it's colorful, it's grayish-white, but it's a little brownish-reddish. ” This epistemology of the word graorasto (grayish brownish) prompted me to create an animated work that deals with the search for that color. Animation was created in a creative environment for creative coding, as a new way of visual expression in my work practice. The search for color that everyone sees, feels and pronounces differently is a need for constant movement and new knowledge. The work Graorasto is a combination of newly created animation and Instagram story post, presented in a split screen video. A clear boundary has been set between the videos, but there is a connection at the level of associativity. Video has no sound, because the need of the work is to activate only the sense of sight. You can see animation at the following link: vimeo.com/546415133

Autoportret
Autoportret / flertovanje sa kontrolom // Self-portrait / flirting with control Prvi autoportret koji sam napravila koristeći programsko okruženje za kreativno kodiranje, uključujući generativan i strogo kontrolisan pristup radu. S jedne strane osmišljavam sopstveni eksperiment, s druge zadajem nedvosmislene funkcije koje kreiraju oblike, i na taj način stvaram novi izazovni proces u svojoj novomedijskoj praksi stvaranja. Generativni pristup umetnosti pruža nova polja izražavanja, i samim tim nove spoznaje ličnih i profesionalnih pomeranja granica, kroz svakodnevno korišćenje novih alata i radnog okruženja. Od fotografije autoportreta, koja je početna referenca ovog rada, napravila sam raster koji se rotira vertikalno za 360 stepeni. Rezultat rada je animacija i serija digitalnih crteža (zadatah 360 slika/frames). Svaki zabeleženi crtež je tačno jedan stepen punog kruga, ali i slika koja ima “život“ van tog kruga. Animaciju kao i većinu frejmova možete pogledati na sledećem linku: https://sanjasolunac.com/selfportrait/ The first self-portrait I made using a software environment for a creative coding, including a generative and strictly controlled approach to work. On the one hand, I design my own experiment, on the other hand, I assign unambiguous functions that create shapes, and in that way I create a new challenging process in my new media practice of creation. The generative approach to art provides new fields of expression, and thus new insights into moving personal and professional boundaries, through the daily use of new tools and the work environment. From the self-portrait photograph, which is the initial reference of this work, I made a raster that rotates vertically by 360 degrees. The result is an animation and a series of digital drawings (given 360 images / frames). Each recorded drawing is exactly one degree of a full circle, but also an image that has "life". out of that circle. You can watch the animation as well as most of the frames at the following link: https://sanjasolunac.com/selfportrait/